Getting Used To It

I retired on January 5th of this year, after 32 years of working as an Office Manager. I would have to say the most difficult thing is finding things NOT to do; I am accustomed to being busy all day long, and it is very trying to find comfort in not being busy. I can remember being at work, thinking, "wouldn't I love to be sitting at home right now reading a good book". I could picture myself reclining on the couch downstairs with the morning sun streaming in the window. But it isn't that easy! I serve myself bowls of guilt for just sitting down, as though I'm not doing my share, as though my husband expects an inventory of the day's accomplishments the moment he walk through the doorway each night. In actuality, it's me that dredges up the guilt. Me that feels the inane need to accomplish something each day. I definitely need to work on my ability to relax!